Authentic Success

It’s an interesting thing to watch the reactions when I talk about Imposter Syndrome.  There is normally this light of recognition that comes in to someone’s eyes as they easily agree that this is something they deal with in their life.  Then you can watch them mentally putting it on a shelf marked “work on this someday” and move on.  It makes me sad in that I don’t feel they fully understand the true costs of relegating this “issue” to the “someday” shelves of self-care and love.

When you suffer from Imposter Syndrome (and I don’t say “suffer” lightly), you are experiencing it in EVERY area of your life.  It shows up in all personalities, all walks of life and all roles that we take on.  It takes up a supply of your energetic self by using it to protect you from beliefs and emotional pain that you have carried likely your whole life.  It depletes you, and dims you, and keeps you playing small.  These are not little consequences… these are massively impactful to your health, wealth, happiness and success.

In simple terms, Imposter sufferers wear masks of protection.  These masks are made up of all of the coping mechanisms we have designed to protect us from anyone discovering the emotional spots of pain underneath.  I see the masks as heavy, solid and yet brittle enough to be at risk of shattering, whereas the emotional spots under the mask are soft, sore and tender to the possibility of being exposed.  The sore spots are all of the negative things we believe about ourselves… you know… I’m not good enough.  I’m not smart enough.  I am alone.  I’m not lovable.  Once we have created this belief (and yes, we create them ourselves as kids), we then spend the rest of our lives protecting ourselves from anyone discovering that we feel this way.  Enter the masks of protection that consist of our thoughts, behaviours, patterns and actions that we live every day.  By using our energy in these protective ways, we are taking that energy away from self-care, self-love, expansion, gratitude and every other positive emotion available to us.  To put it bluntly, it is a waste of your energetic resources… especially given that there are amazing ways to heal those sore spots and take off your mask.

Here is a really basic list of some categories of people and how their suffering commonly shows up:

Entrepreneurs

You are your business and if your business is not growing, it’s because you aren’t.  Especially for those of you that are service oriented – you are selling yourself and essentially your energy.  If you are using lots of your energy protecting your sore spots, clients feel the “lack” available to help them.  So grow, heal and up-level personally and the professional will follow.

Moms

You are the superheroes of giving.  Seriously – it is a HUGE emotional output in your life. The most important cost to you is that you miss the magic of what you have created.  You miss the magic moments, the magic feelings and the magically quirky growth of your little humans.  You miss it because you are so busy making sure you look like you have it all together.  Or managing EVERY TINY aspect of your entire family’s lives.  Or you miss it because you are too busy castigating yourself for not knowing how to do the 10,000 things demanded of you in a day in the properly perfect manner.  You frigging miss so much when you use your energy to protect yourself from all of the inferiority feelings instead of using your energy to soak up every bit of magic on your Mom journey.  This one is heart-breaking for me.

Professionals

How much are you running on fear?  Fear of screwing up the pitch or presentation, fear of not getting that client, fear of being by-passed by someone smarter than you?  It is absolutely exhausting having to pretend that “business is business” and feelings are for your personal life.  That is crap – you are having the feelings at work… you just take the energy to stuff them in to a box, then more energy to pretend they aren’t there, then more to unpack them at the end of the day (if, in fact, you do this at all).  More than likely your relationships at home suffer too because you have used so much of your energy stuffing and pretending, that you have run out at the end of the day.  This road leads to physical sickness, mental health issues and, in lots of cases, pure burn-out.

Care Givers

Nurses, teachers, doctors, paramedics, social workers etc.  I am talking to you here.  Like Moms, you give of yourselves ALL damn day.  Like professionals – you have to stuff your personal feelings.  When you are also hiding the fact that sometimes you are scared, sad, unsure, rejected and overwhelmed – you will just plain run out.  You will run out of compassion, out of empathy, out of emotions because out of necessity, you go in to lock-down mode.  You especially, need to care for yourselves more diligently than you care for your patients, students or clients.  You HAVE to make the conscious choice to clear your energy so that you can continue to be a care-giver at all.  You HAVE to.

The cost of not addressing your Imposter Syndrome can be devastating.  I don’t want that for you.  I want you to know that there are ways to heal the sore spots so you don’t need a mask to protect them.  I want you to know that you can feel, think and behave in a way that makes you even better at your chosen role, while at the same time making yourself a priority.  I want you to be wildly happy and enormously successful in your life.

So if you are struggling, reach out and start to heal the sore spots.  The cost of not healing this is just way too high.

To your wild happiness and enormous success,

Deb

I hear this phrase all the time.  At first it gave me this sort of free-fall feeling of “OK… let’s do this”.  It would give me the courage to take the scary step in that moment.  If this is how you use this statement, then by all means, let it be an in-the-moment tool for you.

BUT, the idea that you need to go through life “faking” anything is false.  It implies that if you do something enough times, it will become “normal”.  The action may become routine, but until you shift the energy causing the initial distress, all you are doing is shoving yet another part of your energy and emotions in to a box.  That box isn’t free-flowing… it is stagnant and creates a loss of your overall energy.

A better plan is to figure out where the fear, anxiety and stress are coming from.  Trust me when I say it isn’t this meeting, or that interview or the family gathering.  The root lies somewhere else.  Until you acknowledge and process that root, you will keep building stagnate boxes of energy in your system that eventually show up as burn out, anxiety attacks, chronic sickness and pain.  When you experience the desire to “fake it ‘till you make it”, take a moment and ask yourself the following questions:

1.     When have I felt like this before?

2.     Who is the person associated with this feeling for you?

3.     How do I want to feel in this situation instead?

I STRONGLY encourage you to find an energy practitioner that you resonate with to help you shift the core of the problem.  You will be doing a great piece of the work here by answering these questions, but I don’t want to mislead you in to thinking that self-awareness is enough.  It’s the first step… not the last one. The questions alone won’t solve the problem, but they will give you a path to follow to unlock those stagnant boxes and to let real emotions flow. You know, the good ones like happiness, purpose, confidence and joy.

Here is a short video that you can use to help with the in-the-moment fear and anxiety.  Give it a try and then modify my words to suit any situation where you feel the need to “fake” it.

To your success,

Deb

Fear is an interesting beast. It can be wildly obvious or it can be sneakily insidious. For the obvious – think running from a bear, or dark creepy parking garages, or in my case, small, innocent little snakes that cause me to freeze for embarrassingly long periods of time. Then swear, and depending on the day… cry. That is primal and obvious fear, and not really what I want to talk to you about today.

I want to talk about the fear that is controlling most of what we do, think, say and feel. This is the insidious fear that we aren’t good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, strong enough etc. etc. These are core beliefs about ourselves that we all have, and we are desperately, wildly, constantly afraid that they are true. We go through life each day protecting ourselves from the possibility of being made to feel what we fear is true about ourselves. Take someone who doesn’t feel smart enough… she will work her ass off to make sure that nobody ever questions her value. She’ll over-prepare, constantly train, work late and go so far above and beyond reproach that nobody would question her intelligence. And yet, she fears. She is so afraid of this happening, that she spends most of her life running from this fear by way of doing everything humanly possible so she isn’t confronted with it.

Take a woman that’s afraid she isn’t lovable. She is so afraid that this is true, that she will take scraps of affection, a glimmer of respect and an ounce of friendship and she will make it enough. She will pretend that this is acceptable so she never has to face her desperate fear that there is something wrong with her… that she is fundamentally unlovable.

How about the man that thinks he is weak. This man may bluff, bluster and bully his way into feeling like he is strong and powerful. His behaviour screams that nothing gets to him, that he is in control, and yet he fears. He fears that under all of that bluster, someone will call him weak.

The most insidious part of this, is that these fears are bullshit. Completely and utterly untrue. They are the beliefs of a child’s brain unable to process logic or rationalize evidence. It’s how our brains work – we create these beliefs as children and then spend the rest of our lives dealing with the fear that they instil.   Read this again. These fears are. not. true. They are patterns and perceptions, but they are not truth.

So what are you really afraid of? I can tell you that I was afraid someone in my corporate jobs would realize that I was just a silly small town girl who bluffed her way through the day. I was afraid they would see how scared I was – because fear was weakness and to let someone see it? Well, shit, now you should be ashamed of yourself. And still, none of that is true. Not one single part of it. I am smart. I am strong. I am capable. I am loved.

And so are you. These are stories we have been telling ourselves, and it is way past time that we take a hard look and call ourselves out on this crap. They are just stories – re-write the pages. Re-write the plot, the climax, the ending … it’s your story and your choice.

Please don’t live out of fear. Live out of passion, love, joy, excitement… anything but fear. Fear isn’t true – so find something that is, and live from there.

Wishing you truth, success and happiness on your path to finding fearless.

Deb

It was a distinct shock to my system the day I realized that righteous anger is just an excuse to really get behind a reaction I was having.  I used it to allow myself to burn fiercely with all of the anger I had in me and cross emotional lines I normally wouldn’t.  It felt so good to just dump all of my angst, resentment, anger and feelings of injustice on another person without having to rationalize my reaction.  That is the danger of righteous anger… the permission it gives you to relieve yourself of your personal emotional responsibility.

Here are a couple of examples:

That ego-maniac boss who treats you with no respect and who dared to make an inappropriate comment this morning.  And you fume, you build that righteous indignation to epic proportions because it feels so good to have a target.  After all, he was unequivocally wrong. No other way to look at it.  He was dead wrong and you have the RIGHT to be angry.  Yes you do.  What you don’t ever have the right to do is ignore the fact that your reaction is ALWAYS about you.

How about that Mom who dares to question your parenting methods?  She is blatantly rude, narrow-minded and so out of line.  Whoa baby, watch my kids for a second while I tear her apart.  After all, how dare she?  Who does she think she is?  And you fume, and you build that righteous indignation to epic Mom-kicking proportions because it feels so good to have a target.

Let’s face it – righteous anger is dangerous because it feels so fricking satisfying AND it feels justified. That feeling of justification is where this kind of anger is deceptive. It makes you think your feelings are accurate and based in a universal truth.  I can promise you that is almost never the case.

Here is the truth – it is ALWAYS about you.

Your reaction is a product of your thoughts, feelings and experiences and has nothing to do with the actual behaviour that causes it.  That boss who so offended you?  He triggered YOU, and that is your job to manage.  That rude Mom?  She is hitting at your soft spots and triggering that reaction based on your beliefs about yourself.  They don’t matter.  Their behaviour doesn’t matter.  Your reaction does.  It is a magnifying glass focussed on all of your triggers.  It is a gift to be explored – not participated in until is turns everyone around you to cinders.

The next time you feel that swell of anger, I want you to follow these steps:

1. Recognize that rising, swelling anger before it hits peak destruction mode.
2. Get curious (without judgement) about what it is in this situation that has triggered you.
3. Be a detective and gently dig in to where the trigger came from for you.
4. Thank the anger for showing you where you can focus your love and attention in the future.

Righteous anger is seductive.  It can be powerfully destructive or powerfully informative.  It is your choice to make because it is always about you.😊

Let me start off by saying that I am NOT the ultimate expert on EFT.  There are many “masters” of EFT that can quote the science, the research and the protocol perfectly.  I am a user, lover and practitioner of EFT that wants the whole freaking world to experience it. This is me, telling you in the best way I know how, how the miracle of EFT works and what that can mean for you.

Let’s start with what EFT stands for – Emotional Freedom Techniques.  Techniques is plural because there are many methods within EFT that are highly effective and specialized based on the client and emotional needs.  The basic biology is that there is a little almond shaped part of your brain called your Amygdala.  This little gem is what controls your fight, flight or freeze response.  So basically, it interprets a stress trigger and signals your body to react accordingly.  This means blood flow is directed away from your organs to your limbs, it means less brain function and more reactive ability, it means a rush of hormones that allows you to be faster than you would be without them.  Think running from a bear… that is what your Amygdala is in charge of.

The problem is that we are conditioned to be triggered into a stress response way too often in our lives.  Think road rage.  Think big presentation.  Think two toddlers in the grocery store that are hungry and bored.   Our bodies are reacting as if we are constantly running from large hungry bears.  We are not built to sustain this response.  Our body’s response to stress is to help save our lives, and is meant to be temporary with a recovery period.  Modern life doesn’t allow this.  So now we are all coolly sauntering through our lives on the outside, while our biology is screaming, “Run for your life!”

EFT is often called “tapping”, and it is because you quite simply tap on acupressure points on your head, face and torso.  These points effectively shush the “run for your life” voice by calmly whispering, “Its okay, you are safe.”  It takes the intensity of emotions away so that the stress response from our bodies isn’t needed.  And yes, it is as much of a relief as it sounds.  I often describe the stressed out Amygdala as being like a hot burner on the stove… it’s all lit up red and pulsing with intensity.  Tapping is like shutting off the element, it starts to cool off until it is safe to the touch.

Here’s what this is capable of doing for you.  It’s capable of changing your reactions to stressful stimuli.  It can change your reaction from screaming at that road rage driver, to wishing them a safe drive.  And no, not in the most sarcastic way possible J. You can actually feel so safe and neutral that their anger does not trigger you.  It can switch the racing heart and stress sweats before a big presentation, to excitement to share your knowledge.  It can move an overwhelmed Momma from the brink of an adult meltdown in the grocery store, to calm, peaceful, unconditional love and smiles with her kids.  Yep, a magical miracle is EFT.

Like all good things, it is a practice and requires some consistent effort.  The difference is that your biological protection system (remember your Amygdala?) likes this change.  It feels calm, which means it is comfortable that you are safe.  This is a key reason why tapping is so effective… your brain, body and energy system won’t fight you as long as you are tapping.  Don’t get me wrong, resistance will present itself, but the physical act of tapping always helps.  Trauma, depression, PTSD, anxiety, weight loss, shame and anger are all within the healing abilities of this tool. For the big stuff, work with a practitioner, but for a daily practice to increase your energy, clear away some stress and be able to feel more joy – tap away!!!

Here is a short video I recorded for you to give it a try.  I hope you enjoy it, and better yet – I hope you get hooked because I know this tool is one of the keys to authentic success!